i'm ashley, i'm twenty, and i've been battling anorexia since i was fourteen years old. i've also been diagnosed with depression & generalized anxiety disorder.
hw: 121, lw: 95, cw: 102.5, gw: 93, height: 5'5
i haven’t posted in a while, but i’m still here. be back soon.
i’m trying to take my online orientation and there is some guy sitting at a table behind me chomping his gum and i can hear his spit sloshing around in his mouth halfway across the room. he also looks like david spade.
all of these things make me want to physically harm him.
i ate fat free berry yogurt mixed with plain cheerios instead of ice cream. :) successssss.
…and then throw it up. let’s be realistic here.
today is going to be/has already been so long. it’s about noon right now, but i was sick all this morning because i think i put way more salt in my salt water flush last night than i really needed to. i stayed in bed as long as possible before i absolutely had to get up. i’m in the library at my school right now and i’ve been trying to fix the mess that is my financial aid. in a second i’m going to have to go argue with the financial aid office, which i’m dreading. and then i have to take a 2 hour online orientation for the nursing home i’ll be doing my clinical at in a few weeks for my nursing assistant class, then go right to my 4-hour-long tuesday/thursday class.
and then, i volunteered to babysit my two cousins tonight. one is three, the other is almost two. and i’m doing it for free even though i need the money. fuck meee and fuck todayyy wah.
Peanut butter isn’t bad for you. Get natural, crunchy peanut butter. Not jiffy or that other shitty processed crap. Real natural peanut butter. Its good for I swear. Uber amounts of protein that will give you energy you need!
i know it’s not like bad for me necessarily, but it’s just loaded with calories, so when i’m trying to restrict to only a few hundred a day, it’s not feasible to eat two tbsps because that’s almost 200 calories by itself. plus since i love it so much, i usually end up eating more than one serving and then i’m up to a few hundred calories in no time.
You are seriously such a gorgeous girl, dont ever let anyone tell you otherwise :) xxAnonymous
oh wow, thank you. <3
Sometimes I fell like tha. Not from not eating, but from you know. Sometimes it can be a happy place.
ugh this is so off topic but i know you agreeeee - you know what would put me in a happy place? if BLG would put up fricken tour dates or some shit. what is this madness. i don’t like not having some random date to look forward to.